Någonting nytt
Det är någonting i luften ikväll,
något jag inte kan förklara.
Luften är klarare, kallare,
men svårare att andas.
Allt ser likadant ut men känns så främmande.
Något inom mig och runt omkring
är påväg att förändras,
bortom min kontroll.
Knoppen har spruckit och det är dags att växa upp.
Men utan skyddet blir jag rädd.
Månen lyser svagt
och det ser nästan ut som att den gråter.
Lycka? Sorg?
Jag vet inte.
Men nåt är annorlunda.
Och det skrämmer mig.
- Jessica Lundholm
I blame the writer
Falling, falling,
down, down.
I have to change.
I can't afford to lose.
This is my chance to make it right.
I'm the one with the book,
this story is mine to be written.
But I never seem to be able,
to stay inside the lines.
And I rip it apart.
Page by page.
The ink never sticks,
and the rain makes it all a blur.
I can't understand,
and the language is unknown.
I despise the book,
and I blame the writer.
Must have been an awful one.
- Jessica Lundholm
My heart is dying
It's one o'clock
and I am still awake.
I am lying in my bed,
trying to sort the thoughts in my head.
Not even close to crying,
still I think my heart is dying.
I've never found a place
that feels like home,
and can't seem to shake
the feeling of being alone.
I can't believe I'm back here again.
I just want to know how it feels,
to be with someone real.
A place to crash
when life turns black.
But all my dreams are gone,
because there's just no one
who understand who I am.
- Jessica Lundholm
Underlandet
Fjädrar
Selfdependence
sleeping all alone
They don't need nobody
they're better on their own
But people are fragile,
and so are you and I.
So why do we keep our solitude,
when it makes us wanna die?
You pretend you're a soldier
you fight your wars yourself
But how come I always find you
in the arms of somebody else?
We try so hard to be selfdependent
we become aggressive tigers
But when all comes around
we're actually just liars
So when you're feeling weak
turn to those above
raise your hands to the sky
and pray the gods for love
- Jessica Lundholm
